We can get through this!

I started college this week, and boy how it's different than high school! I have already made some awesome friends, and they are great! But I am struggling on things though :/ I was so nervous of my first day of college, which I think that most people are when they are starting out. But for me I was so nervous, because I was thinking "What are people going to do or say when they see me checking my blood sugar or when I give myself a shot?" "Will they think I am a weirdo?" I did get A LOT of stares but there were many people asking me questions about it. I guess they didn't think I was a weirdo for giving myself shots. I will be in the middle of class and I will have to take my blood sugar, and people will stare. But I am trying my hardest to get over that. I am still trying my hardest to be the strongest person that I can. You know I do try to stay positive in my blogs and to myself, but I of course do struggle. Honestly there are times when I do want to give up, when I think to myself, that these people might be thinking that I am doing this for attention. Heck I wish I wasn't getting that kind of attention. There are people out there that I think that they think that what diabetics go through. They think "oh big woop they can live with it" I mean yeah we can live with it, but do they really know what I have to do to live? I have to do so much stuff to stay alive. If I didn't check my blood sugar or gave myself shots for what I ate I think I would be in a coma or even dead. I just want people to know that anything can happen to me/ diabetics at anytime. It's something that we don't want attention for, or for anyone to feel sorry for us. We have to do certain things for us to stay alive, for us to live our life everyday. I don't want to say that we aren't normal but we sure do different things than other people do. So, my goal in life is to try to stay positive, try to be happy, and try to get through this. We can do it and we are all here for each other!

This is my life and I can get through this!

So, it's been about one week since I have been home from camp and I am missing it like CRAZY! I learned so much in a week it's crazy. I made some awesome friends from this camp. During camp my group that I had to watch were 13 nine year olds....that of course were ALL diabetics..not only did I have to take care of myself through this I had to help out with all of them! It was very stressful because I am still trying to get in the hang of things for myself, so taking care of all of them just kind of made me not really think about what my blood sugar was. Then after a couple of days I would start testing with them. I had a great time going to the camp and I am so blessed that I went. Just watching those 9 year old girls take their blood sugars made me think that they are all strong. To them diabetes is all what they know. Going through this camp made me think..I started thinking that all these girls don't know what it's like to not have diabetes. Most of the people that went to the camp have been a diabetic for most of their life. For me it's harder because for 17 years before I had it I know what it's like to not have diabetes. I know what it's like to not count out all the carbs and just eat whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. Now going through what they are going through is a HUGE change for me. I guess it's easier for them because they are so used to doing all of that, when I am still trying to figure everything out. I do really miss not having to just eat whatever whenever. But even though this is a terrible disease, everything happens for a reason. Even though this sounds bad for what I have, but it happened for a reason. Maybe the reason is to make me a stronger person. You/I have to think positive about this and not think about the bad things because we have to get through this and we will get through this. "I may have diabetes, but diabetes doesn't have me"