Dear Nora

Dear Nora,

Because of you I am who I am. Because of you I am now a strong person. Because of you I know that I can get through this. Because of you I know how to take good care of myself. I look up to you. You are my role model. You are my inspiration. There is no way in life that you should give up on anything. You fight for what you want in life. You stand up for yourself. So many people look up to you either if they are a diabetic or not. I am so many things because of you. You mean so much to me and I am so blessed to have you as my sister. I know that what we go through can be tough. But I now have this. I now can see what you were going through. I have said that I would have taken this disease away from you so you would not have to deal with it. Well I did end up with it but I did not take it away from you. But you are now not alone. It’s funny to say that things happen for a reason when we talk about why I have this, but look. Since I do have this disease, I have someone to look up to. I have someone who can let me vent to them and you can vent to me. We have got closer because of this. You have always been strong to me and now that you have grown into a beautiful young woman I have seen you become stronger. You never give up in anything you do and I that to me is strong. You have gone through a lot, and I just want to say “keep your head up, keep your love”. You are loved in so many ways Nora. You really are.

Love your sister,

Evelyn

Diabetic Friends

Being a diabetic can be very stressful. We worry about our health all the time that it can get so frustrating in every way. The most stressful and frustrating issue that I feel like I go through is when I am either low or high around my friends that are not diabetics. The reason why it is so irritating is because they truly do not understand what I am feeling. They can “understand” what I am talking about but they do not know what it really feels like. Sometimes I do feel alone and I think that most diabetics will feel that way as well, but after joining a diabetic teen group in my area it has helped me. Not only do we go out and do things together, but we all can vent together and we actually DO understand each other. It is nice just to sit there and just talk about everything that we go through. Because of these people they have made me stronger. I am not saying that my friends who are not diabetics are not there for me because they are. They have also made me stronger, but my diabetic friends have made me stronger because I really know that I am not alone. I have met so many new people within the year that are diabetics and it is just so nice to text them and know that they will always be there for me. So many times I have felt the feeling of being alone but now that I am getting involved more with the diabetic community I do not feel that way anymore. If you are reading this and you are a diabetic remember this: you are not alone! We are all here for each other and we all care for each other. No matter what I will always be there for you, even though I do not know you, I know what you are going through. We are one big diabetic family, and we all care for each other!

Remember to stay strong,

~Evelyn

Happy Diabetes Awareness Month! :)

June 1, 2012 is the date that I will NEVER forget. It is the day that changed my life forever. Seriously. For 18 years of my life I was "normal". Then for now a year and a half it has been different. I now have to check my blood sugar and make sure that it is 120. No it does not mean that I can't have sugar..I can eat whatever I want!! I just now have to give myself insulin for everything that I eat. It is a scary thought. To make sure that I have enough insulin for what I have to eat. Its a life or death situation. Like I have said in my blogs there has been many people in my life to support me and help me get through this. They are here for me so I don't have to worry about if I am going to live or not. I am so thankful for them in my life! So this is the month for spreading awareness for diabetes! I am more than excited to celebrate this awful disease and make it something positive. This is the month where we should think positive about diabetes, and celebrate that we are all strong survivors and that we can get through this. It's really weird to think that this month is not only for my sister, but now for me. I never thought in my life that this month would be something that I would celebrate for myself. But we will make this a fun month and spread awareness! WEAR YOUR BLUE! :)

This Week Has Been Crazy!

So this week has been so crazy!! There have been days where I have been really high and the next day I was really low and couldn't get my blood sugar to go up. It is very frustrating to have to deal with this while working everyday. I just wish I didn't have to deal with this, I wish we all didn't have to deal with this. While having a crazy week people have been there for me like crazy! So I would like to thank everyone who has been there for me!

First to my mom and dad, thank you for taking care of me this week when I have been home! You guys mean everything to me! I love you! So lucky to have you as my parents!

Then to my wonderful sister for having all these girl nights with me and taking care of me and letting me vent! I love you!

Then to my love of my life. I love you so much, thank you for putting up with me when I am moody. Thank you for holding my hand and standing there right by my side this whole week even though we aren't actually together in person! I love you so so much!

Then to my best friend who I have only been friends with for only a couple of months, Sammi. You mean so much to me! You would do anything for me and of course I would do anything for you! You are a true blessing in my life and I am so happy you are in my life(:

I have known this girl for 13 years of my life and I am so glad that we are best friends! Thank you for caring for me and always being there for me! So happy to have you in my life(:

Then to my best friend Ash, even though you were going through a hard time this week you were there for me and I am beyond blessed and thankful to have you in my life and to care for me even when you aren't feeling well either. love you!

And to everyone else who has helped me through everything this week you all mean the world to me! I love you all and I really am blessed to know you all!!

~stay strong~

Evelyn

Tired of this

So for the past 3 to 4 days my blood sugars have been low and I am just tired of it. I know I can get through this, it's just hard because it messes with my moods and makes me so tired. It has been putting me in moods and I have been taking it out on people and I am sorry about that! haha but seriously it's just so frustrating when you can't it control anything when your blood sugar goes low and all you want to do is just yell at people and just sleep. (Does anyone feel that some way or is it just me??) But if you sleep then you worry about what if your blood sugar goes lower and you can't wake up. I have tried everything and not over correcting  with the foods I eat. I have no idea what is going on!! But hopefully this gets better and I wont be so moody!
~stay strong
Evelyn

PS sorry Jake for fighting with you...you know I can't control it..I love you(:

New Life, New Idea

So my first year of college is over! I finished and got it over with! Throughout my first year of college I thought that I would end up being a teacher. My whole goal in life is to help others so being a teacher I would help kids. Well at the end of my first year in college I have thought of something that I would enjoy doing more. I have decided to change my major to organizational leadership. I have chosen this major because I have decided to help out with JDRF. When I blog people tell me that they look up to me and that I am their role model. So today was the day! I have changed my major and I am happier than ever! I know that this is the right thing to do with my life and I will continue to help other diabetics get through this! I can do this!
~Stay Strong
Evelyn

Helping Out

I know I thank a lot of people for being there for me, but I really do mean it when I say it! After writing some blogs about my life people will message me and they will tell me that I am like a role model to them or they look up to me. Having people say that to me means EVERYTHING to me! It's what I love to do! I love to make people think that they can get through this, I love how something that I post on my blog can really touch someone. Who would like that me venting to the world about my diabetes would really change someones life. After getting type one I feel like I really do have a place here in the world, and a reason as to why I have this, and I think it's because I can help people. I feel like I need to help people with this and tell them that they can get though it and that they need to take care of themselves. I want to be that person that can help and change someone life. I feel like that's why I am here. If there is anything that you need to talk about with your diabetes just talk to me! I would love to help you! I am here for everyone!
~Stay Strong~
Evelyn